Namaste

Written March, 6th 2009

I want to see the goddess in you

Let me know your love is true

"Seeing is believing" they say

But in order to believe you have to have faith

It's not too hard to find true love

But in order to keep it, you gotta rise above

Let go of the doubt or jealousy that reigns

So that love and kindness can fill your veins

Transform the thoughts of your heart

And listen to your song

Release that grudge you're holding

It's OK to dance along!

Don't worry about feeling silly or stepping in too deep

Be the guardian of your own soul and spirit to keep

Love yourself to find what's true

It all starts and ends with you

Questions about - - - -

Written on 2/16/09

I opened up to you when I was low
You said it was OK to cry, to bare my soul
You were fake.
Just wanted to see how far I would go
Now I'm feeling even more alone
Sometimes I wonder why do I care or let myself feel so much?
The pain comes in mixed with short-lived relief and love
This love is my crutch or vicodin pill
Something that numbs all the pain 
Can decend and make me feel ill
What should I do If love is a drug I need to survive?
Will you help me keep love alive
Or will you just feed the flame of pain inside? 
I wish I knew how to live this life
And love the ones I bring into mine

Why is there always so much strife?

Is the pain only one of a kind

Or do I just reap what I sow?

Driving in silence is better than driving in tears

Written on 2/16/09

Instead of yelling and fighting, emotions on overdrive

We sit and ride in silence, only half alive

What can you do

But cut your losses and stew

Over everything as the road passes you by

Nothing can be fixed this way

But at least I'm not going to cry

The cold outside is inside too

Of this shell that rolls along

Just like a life you wish was thru,

The pain just keeps dragging on

But silence is better than tears today

When sadness is all that you know

Someday I will drive on my own road of life

And let only happy tears flow

Artistic Disgression

You want so much of me
More than I have to give
You're always chasing me
When I just want to liveI can't give you my heart
I keep that for myself
I'm keeping all my art
So take it off your shelf

I'll miss you, sure it's true
But here we are again
You want a dream come true
And I just want a friend

I'm sure it's over now
And really that's too bad
I told you this was how
It was not meant to end

I wrote this poem for you
I wanted you to know
You have my art with you
No matter where you go

It may not be displayed
Inside your home or out
But my heart has not changed
Just simply spread about 

A poem on friendship

I'm a lover, a giver, a dreamer, a friend

I will stick by you until the end

That is if you let me, I'll be there in kind

I'll help lift you up and broaden your mind

For all this I give, I ask for something:
A friendship that lasts above all other things
I'm better than those who steal and move on

Ours would be a friendship to truly lean on

Please let me help you with the troubles you face

I need a friend too, on which to brace

Together our combo can really be known

As a friendship into which both parties have grown

Again I beg that you understand

How important you are to the greater plan

True friendship is capable of changing the world

Together we'll see more than alone ever could

The joy one can find alongside another

Can never be better than friendship forever

Apologies

I don't want to lose you

I won't let you go 

I push you away only 'cause I don't know

You make my heart melt and I cherish you for such

Please take me back because I love you so much!

Reflections

1/7/09

There’s not much else I can do but silently miss you. My hands are tied behind my heart. The pain of missing you is still not greater than the pain of having you. My weary bones gather strength from the inner spirit to look forward. I appreciate my past. My life was different before I knew you, and yet again it is changing after loosing you. I may miss, I may feel despair. But what is life if not to get hit by passing rocks just to get back up again. The sooner we learn this the better. I care, I love, I miss, I dream, I fight, I breath, I grow, I teach, I fall, I believe, I am you and you are with me.

I can’t let your memory hold me back or get me down. You tattooed my heart with your soul and as unforgettable as you may be, I only belong to me. Sometimes I wish for that spotless mind, what peace may come to leave you behind. But what was shared is not ours alone. Our love was given between two hearts unknowing who or what else our emotion affected.

To have loved and feel love creates a deity to be shared throughout the universal spirit of amore in its entirety. 

Lovers Privilege or Peril?

12/23/09

Such a privilege in a lover’s eyes

Whether in a dream or alive

To love and share a sight

Together on endless nights

To love with no regret

To know your heart is safely set

To feel connected to what’s true

May eventually tear your heart in two

With great amore comes great peril

Building a life may leave you sterile

Away from a love that was once all you knew

When forever is over much too soon

Leave open the door as the heart can repair

Let go of ex-lovers with a tear of despair

I must make this choice, the decision’s not mine

Broken heart’s healing always takes time

Forget the good story of star-crossed trouble

You’ve still got your heart left to untangle

All alone you almost are

Reigns true of victims from broken heart

Sunny Days (a melody)

Sunny days are ahead of me. The current cold is sure to leave. 

Followed shortly by the Spring then summer days are ahead of me. 

Yeah, sunny days are ahead of me.  

I’m just a little leaf floating on the breeze through the changes of time. 

Springtime is here again. Drop that jacket, grab a friend. 

Spring birds sing with glee and then summer days are ahead of me. 

Yeah, sunny days are ahead of me.  

I’m just a little leaf floating on the breeze through the changes of time.

Winter days are ahead of me. The summer breeze is forgetting me. 

I’ll climb this tree to fall and see the winter days ahead of me. 

Yeah, winter days are ahead of me. 

I’m just a little leaf floating on the breeze through the changes of time. 

Winter seems to last too long, after summer into fall. 

Shortly soon we’ll have to call for sunny days ahead of me. 

Yeah, sunny days are ahead of me.

I’m just a little leaf floating on the breeze through the changes of time.

Sunny days are ahead of me. Yeah, sunny days are ahead of me all the time.

a note on planning..

One can only make so many plans before they all fall apart and change direction. Life is lived through coping with life’s change in direction. Nothing can really be planned, over planned or unplanned. Life is the epitome of the un-plan. 

Rtist

12/20/09

Living is dying everyday. But I'm alive in a special way.
Trusting the sun for my guidance. Well not really but I'm gonna try this.
Ancestors come out in me. Out of love never of greed.
Awaken the spirit in me.

The artist I know to learn and to grow.
Salvation reliANTh on me.

Everyday Song (en parte)

My life is getting better// everyday I live
everyday I give, everyday I live
No need for something better// everyday I live
everyday I give, everyday I live

Trouble was a friend of mine

10/23/09

Got people at my back all day

One particular whose in my way

She rants and raves all over nuttin'

Spitting at my soul like she got something

You think you're better by puttin' me down

You'll get yours too when you lay down

Girl you know I'm tired of the game you play

2 much pain on 2 sweet a day

Unfortunate Mistake

11/2/09

Mistakes are what makes the world go round.

Unfortunately.

Mistakes are bringing me down.

Unfortunately.

I'm fortunately letting go of my unfortunate mistakes.

Thoughts on time

12/3/09


You know how they say grass is always greener on the other side? Well it's true. 
Time is too much to have when its yours and not enough when you don't. 

New Bones

Sleeping awake

With too much at stake

Who may give the choice to break

Tried and true

Troubled and blue

Can't you see I'm too good for you

Together, alone

Have a talk on the phone 

Now go good dog to fetch a bone

I Miss You

To miss someone is to have known them so well that a part of you feels them even when they are not around. To miss someone means that you are alive and have lived well enough to have made an impact and to let others change your life. To miss someone is hard but you must take comfort in knowing that they are happy. I miss you, not who you have become but the person you were to me. I miss how you would make me feel when we were together as one heart. I miss your love, beauty, brains and soul. I miss your smile, eyes, hugs and comfort. I miss YOU..

..I'm just sayin'

Floating Tricks

The moon is playing tricks on me

What once was there I cannot see

It's all floating away from me

What's done is gone so let it be..

An Angel's Story

10/28/09

Here’s a story of a girl

Who fell in love and lost her world

Darkness shown as she was broken down

Left alone and beaten on the ground

Then an angel came to say:

Be strong, avoid at all costs. Be civil but not overly helpful.

Keep those who have wronged you at a distance.

And then the girl thought to herself:

Myself is most important, my life is number 1.

I’m no longer your servant. I’m now free to run.

Letting go feels good. I don’t need you evermore.

Darkened Doore

10/28/09

The devil lives among us at home in the shadows of Depresida*.

Her seething ways travel through doors to that which is darker than thou.

To no longer be one with the good spirits and

Lose all compassion in lust after greed.

To forget where she came from and where she is going.

Breaking those around her as she broke herself.

She lost the easiest thing to keep and the hardest to get back.

Repellant choices leave her sitting in cold blood.

To prove devils too can be born out of love.