wish upon a star

we're both stars in the same universe
trouble is we're in different orbits

u'd spun around 7 times before i was born

i drifted slowly by searching forlorn
just 2 shooting stars among the fireworks

trying to meet without stopping first

spinning beyond reach thru celestial matter

like repellent magnets admiring from afar

and as falling stars crash down towards the earth

we leave behind nothing but memories and dirt

playing the game

Life is certainly funny sometimes

like a giant game of playing cards

or tug of war, tugging at my heart

the game of life becomes an art

Turning corners or choosing blind 

'cos everyone must roll the dice.

Who wins if the deck can change--

yet the rules remain the same?

When We Danced.

u came and went

and made me smile

when we danced 4 awhile
we went on dates and got in fights
and swore for never 'nother's night
nevermore moments rush with u
s'pose daydreams will have to do

Blessings: I'll take a hefty helping.

positivity thats what i want
positivity that what you got

positivity that what i need

shanti shanti shanti

live your life in positivity
growing love resourcefully
listen to the sounds of peace
filled with positive energy

let's all strive for life in peace
sharing what we know we need
change the world away from greed
and tune in to positivity

see the changes we have grown
into a world that was unknown
life is better now when you see
a new path built on positivity

we're not done, there's another step
breath in deep and don't forget
our mother earth and power sun
blessed us with positivity from day one

keep this gift within your soul
hold it, share it 'till you go
travel 'round the galaxy
sharing, spreading positivity

the end.

Dreams

It's almost daily now that
memories drift by
like magnets
reminding my heart
and hard to deny
heavy thoughts of you
align my bed
impossible ignorance
on previous comforts, now dead
what dreamers may hope
for solace in change
fearing que sera, sera
and you.. just water in my dreams

Positivity

Trying times

Prove rewarding

Patience builds

Out of mourning

Laughter will

Ring again

As you seek

Life's true mend

One of Those Days

I sat outside waiting for a friend
For plans that were supposed to be
She never came, so I stayed waiting
And that's when this appeared to me

I got my troubles and addictions
I got things I want to change
Some days are better than others
Well, it's just one of those days

I waited long enough to see if
Maybe she had changed her mind
Don't hate me for being controversial
I just run on my own time

I got my troubles and addictions
I got things I want to change
Some days are better than others
Well, it's just one of those days

I left the stage and you behind
Not waiting 'round no more
Another day you'll wait for me
'Till then, I'm evening the score

I got my troubles and addictions
I got things I want to change
Some days are better than others
Well, it's just one of those days

I got my troubles and addictions
I got things I want to change
Some days are better than others
And it's just one of those days

Today's Tomorrow

Confrontations

With future selves

Lead me to follow

No one else

Intuition naturally

Finds itself

Strong in me

Spiritual feeling

Steadfast

Follows an original path

Conclusions drawn

Earth to soul

Live and breathe
For my own

Why Do I

Why do I
write to avoid writing
speak to avoid talking
hear to avoid listening
yell to avoid crying

Why do I
stop to avoid going
ask to avoid knowing
smoke to avoid breathing
sleep to avoid feeling

Why do I
hate to avoid loving
lie to avoid trusting
kiss to avoid holding
give to avoid getting

Why do I
break to avoid fixing
steal to avoid having
run to avoid changing
jump to avoid climbing

Why do I
dress to avoid wearing
quit to avoid losing
smile to avoid frowning
believe to avoid understanding

Appreciation: III

So I like a chic...

Or maybe

I just like her

Style

Her sureness of

Herself

She's cute, smart & new.

I like new..

No More Games.

I don't play games so STOP tryin' to get me to lose a turn...

I may be blonde but I ain't no dumb girl, get it?

I liked you so I'll give ya another minute

But better watch now how you spend it

I won't pass GO another time,

As long as you got that rock stuck in your spine

Listen lady, it's time you realize

I can keep up while I try you on for size

I sure as hell ain't a fool like you wanna believe

The way you assume will get you none of me

Cuz I don't f'n wait around, play around, roll around

Until you're worth it

And all you gotta do is prove it

But instead your gonna prove me wrong

And I get to be the one laughing all along

Game over.

I Must Admit:

When it rains it pours…

I get a dozen roses

But nobody scores

You want me

But I don’t get

How giving me roses

Makes me forget

I like her &

You want me

I’m not just some apple

You can pick from a tree

I’ll fall @ my own pace

Don’t try to influence--

Growing love takes time
And I’ve got the patience.

Pressure

Writing writing everyday

Makes the pain go away

Even for a moment or two

Just like a good song would do

I feel trapped like in prison

By the world in which we live in

Wishing I could get away

Steal this life for my own
One day

Start a new or feel fresh

Let go of this earlthy flesh

Not saying that I want to die

But I guess that'd be alright

Release the pressure, fly away

It's gonna happen someday

When I go back to the end

Please play EJ's 'Candle in the Wind.'

I'll be starting over again
Breath, release, relax, begin.

I Miss You, But.

I miss you

But..

When I miss you

I pull through

I will go out & do my thing

Just 'cause you're not with me

Doesn't mean I can't be who I want to be

I am me and will forever be

Guess what - you'll see.

Ambition: II

So the truth is
It's your problem
NOT mine.
You who see nothing
Other than your
Elevated self,
You who will never know
Truth unless you
Pay for it,
You who must
Always prove to be
A liar and a thief
...Will forever remain
A tainted soul in the universe.
You who had so much potential
Corrupted your own heart and
Stole from those around you,
You who chose DarKness over light,
I wish you reciprocation
On your tangled path
And may you one day
See the results of such
An ignored heart.

Ambition: I

My life is a spectrum

With pressure on all sides

It changes colors as

Resistance builds

But I won't listen

When you say I can't

Because you couldn't

Do what I do

You ain't me

And I don't care

About spectrums only

Following my dreams

So I'll take each opportunity

To change the world

And I won't share ideas

With you who have no faith

Appreciate.

It's nice to know you care

In fact

It makes all the difference

The truth

That you wish well for me

Is hard

To comprehend but

I'm glad

I can breath easier

In knowing

I have your support

Thank you

Everybody

Everybody's got their passion
Everybody's got a disease
Everyone knows what they're doin' here

Everyone but me

I ain't the one fallin' in love

With video-game arcades

I won't walk down the street

Beggin' for money like a slave

Is my reason too big to get yet?

Am I really living in vain?

I can't stand the way you're living

But I love you just the same

A woman lives on the street

Claims she's got a job to do

I let her sing her soul and

Share a poem, damn she's

Good at what she do

But she measures her passion in money

I sure as hell ain't gonna give her dat

When she gives me this:

A lover I knew died today

She left me far behind

But the dead are not lonely

When we all change our minds

We leave pieces of ourselves behind

In broken cracks along the road

Trying to hold yourself together will

Get you left alone

Everybody's got a dream to live

Whether they obey it or not

We are here, one life, that's it

No time to feel alone.

She guesses my thoughts:

Is feeling useless?

Or to miss the F-word?

Friend.

She points to people sitin' at the bar acting
To know the meaning of such a thing

We all got shit goin on
I mean the S-word.

Sex.

Now that I've got your attention

I'll say it comes and goes with passion.
P-words. I can name a few

Smile lady this ones for you

Get on the mic and accomplish your dream

It's what you were destined to do

It's too late to change mine in time for

A dreamers destination

I watch as they catch what she leaves in the cracks

By wearing a soul on her sleeves

But who picks up the slack when

Dreams don’t make math?

I’m counting on wrinkle release

A cat has nine lives

Better try and get it right

Or face forever’s last night

N-word.

NOT NICE.

Did you find your passion yet?

Lemme check my back pocket.

Oh there’s that P-word again.

Peace.

Can we make it?

Stop—

Disappearing.

Check it.

Contemplation on Tattoos.

Someone asked me today why I don’t have any tattoos.

I said I do but I don’t wear them on the outside like you do.

My tattoos lie inside my heart as every painful loving scar.

They may not show on the outside of my skin but
You can see them looking in.

Take a trip inside my heart to see I’ve got plenty of markings.

Just like yours they tend to fade but show the marks of every blade.

What memory will you represent on my scarred up heart?

Show me what need there is to pretend I’m not torn apart.

Sure I bleed with each anew and still crave the next one too.

Why is it that designs meant to last forever fade
Almost imediatly after they are made?

Through my many lovers, inspirations and lost-friends

I’ve been given tattoos on the inside to mend.

Like yours, every tattoo is a mark of who I am,
Who I loved and where I’ve been.

Ladybug Spots.

I'm a chameleon. Changing to be the same. Gettin' older everyday.
I see my face changing into a woman I do not yet know.
By the time I change into her I will be someone new.
I'm 100% different then when I met you, than when I left you,
Than when I wept over you.
I am not the girl you thought you knew. I thought I knew her too.
But even though I loved you it wasn't true.
All I can think of to say is screw you! Why?
When all I wanna do is screw you.
I'm letting you get under my skin,
Digging deeper and deeper again and again.
Aging my amphibian nature and making me feel like a dumb little girl.
I just can't say no. I want to let go.
I want to grow old away from you, into something new.
To be new and fresh and aware.
But somehow you hold me like a deer in headlights stare.
What am I supposed to do when I am not strong enough to ignore my pull to you?
You knew me once. Smothered me there too.
Why in your world, was a butterfly not allowed to bloom?
Perhaps you worried I'd over-shadow you
When I just wanted to share my shadows with you.
While I was busy dreaming of what things could be,
I learned that my heart could bleed when it took a leap.
Crying like a ladybug with broken spots,
This chameleon girl grew up from your knocks.
It still hurts. I'm still changing. Will that ever change?
I read: In monarchs the power to transform lies within.
I'm ready to begin.
Just when I'm ready for flight you pull me in, again.
Will this butterfly ever get set free?
I'm learning and aging and tragically hoping you'll change for me.