Why Do I

Why do I
write to avoid writing
speak to avoid talking
hear to avoid listening
yell to avoid crying

Why do I
stop to avoid going
ask to avoid knowing
smoke to avoid breathing
sleep to avoid feeling

Why do I
hate to avoid loving
lie to avoid trusting
kiss to avoid holding
give to avoid getting

Why do I
break to avoid fixing
steal to avoid having
run to avoid changing
jump to avoid climbing

Why do I
dress to avoid wearing
quit to avoid losing
smile to avoid frowning
believe to avoid understanding