Sunny Days (a melody)

Sunny days are ahead of me. The current cold is sure to leave. 

Followed shortly by the Spring then summer days are ahead of me. 

Yeah, sunny days are ahead of me.  

I’m just a little leaf floating on the breeze through the changes of time. 

Springtime is here again. Drop that jacket, grab a friend. 

Spring birds sing with glee and then summer days are ahead of me. 

Yeah, sunny days are ahead of me.  

I’m just a little leaf floating on the breeze through the changes of time.

Winter days are ahead of me. The summer breeze is forgetting me. 

I’ll climb this tree to fall and see the winter days ahead of me. 

Yeah, winter days are ahead of me. 

I’m just a little leaf floating on the breeze through the changes of time. 

Winter seems to last too long, after summer into fall. 

Shortly soon we’ll have to call for sunny days ahead of me. 

Yeah, sunny days are ahead of me.

I’m just a little leaf floating on the breeze through the changes of time.

Sunny days are ahead of me. Yeah, sunny days are ahead of me all the time.

a note on planning..

One can only make so many plans before they all fall apart and change direction. Life is lived through coping with life’s change in direction. Nothing can really be planned, over planned or unplanned. Life is the epitome of the un-plan. 

Rtist

12/20/09

Living is dying everyday. But I'm alive in a special way.
Trusting the sun for my guidance. Well not really but I'm gonna try this.
Ancestors come out in me. Out of love never of greed.
Awaken the spirit in me.

The artist I know to learn and to grow.
Salvation reliANTh on me.

Everyday Song (en parte)

My life is getting better// everyday I live
everyday I give, everyday I live
No need for something better// everyday I live
everyday I give, everyday I live

Trouble was a friend of mine

10/23/09

Got people at my back all day

One particular whose in my way

She rants and raves all over nuttin'

Spitting at my soul like she got something

You think you're better by puttin' me down

You'll get yours too when you lay down

Girl you know I'm tired of the game you play

2 much pain on 2 sweet a day

Unfortunate Mistake

11/2/09

Mistakes are what makes the world go round.

Unfortunately.

Mistakes are bringing me down.

Unfortunately.

I'm fortunately letting go of my unfortunate mistakes.

Thoughts on time

12/3/09


You know how they say grass is always greener on the other side? Well it's true. 
Time is too much to have when its yours and not enough when you don't. 

New Bones

Sleeping awake

With too much at stake

Who may give the choice to break

Tried and true

Troubled and blue

Can't you see I'm too good for you

Together, alone

Have a talk on the phone 

Now go good dog to fetch a bone

I Miss You

To miss someone is to have known them so well that a part of you feels them even when they are not around. To miss someone means that you are alive and have lived well enough to have made an impact and to let others change your life. To miss someone is hard but you must take comfort in knowing that they are happy. I miss you, not who you have become but the person you were to me. I miss how you would make me feel when we were together as one heart. I miss your love, beauty, brains and soul. I miss your smile, eyes, hugs and comfort. I miss YOU..

..I'm just sayin'

Floating Tricks

The moon is playing tricks on me

What once was there I cannot see

It's all floating away from me

What's done is gone so let it be..

An Angel's Story

10/28/09

Here’s a story of a girl

Who fell in love and lost her world

Darkness shown as she was broken down

Left alone and beaten on the ground

Then an angel came to say:

Be strong, avoid at all costs. Be civil but not overly helpful.

Keep those who have wronged you at a distance.

And then the girl thought to herself:

Myself is most important, my life is number 1.

I’m no longer your servant. I’m now free to run.

Letting go feels good. I don’t need you evermore.

Darkened Doore

10/28/09

The devil lives among us at home in the shadows of Depresida*.

Her seething ways travel through doors to that which is darker than thou.

To no longer be one with the good spirits and

Lose all compassion in lust after greed.

To forget where she came from and where she is going.

Breaking those around her as she broke herself.

She lost the easiest thing to keep and the hardest to get back.

Repellant choices leave her sitting in cold blood.

To prove devils too can be born out of love.

h20

Water is pure energy

Not human energy w/ clouded judgment and souls

But water is pure, honest, unharmful life.

For Jon

11/15/09

There once was a boy home sick with the flu
He said "make me better, you know what to do."
"I cant bring you soup!" said his friend far away,
But I'll write you this poem, to brighten your day.
The magical poetry was really unique.
The boy healed himself in less than a week!

Dusty Shadows

11/13/09

Here I lie in the dusty shadows dreaming of what used to be

The ground beneath my feet is changing

Knowing not where this life may lead

I have lived through the highest highs

Followed by debasing lows

I’ve seen trusting smiles fade as the wind quickly blows

What is the point to all this mess?

If not just to live and then forget?

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Ever present spirit with an all-knowing glow

Hear my plea and guide me through shadows still unknown

I’ll take your hand and trust this soul

Embrace one last Earthly breath,

Say goodbye to what was once and hello to all the rest

M&M's

10/15/09

Scratch that

Take this

Here you go

This one fits

I don’t care

What you say

Pop the pill

It’ll go away

Breath in deep

Let it go

Hold on tight

Feel it flow

Down the throat

Up the nose

Suck it in

Here it goes

Heav(Untitled)

10/11/09

Take me to another room

Away from friendly fire

The time has come to bow my head

And don the golden lyre

In this room are lots of things

To feel or see and touch

Images of happiness and long lost loves

Joy replaces all regret

When love is all you know

Alive as an individual

As new beginnings grow

23 Years Beautiful

10/07/09

My stars are shining in appreciation

Of the universe’s grand connection

At the age of 23, my world is full of such beauty

Living life and loving true

You know I’ll never forget you

So grateful for this course I’m on

To find a place where I belong

What comes next, I may not know

So I’ll soak up this love before I go

True Lies

9/15/09

So much passion

between your legs &

behind your eyes

Tell me you love me

amidst the lies

…

I’ll believe you

4 a moment or 2

Just me and you

Because I want to

…

Kiss the lips with cherry inside

Touches following our passions guide

Body heat rises

Anticipation grows

Our bodies cling as we

Let it gooo

a rap song (why not)

And I'll be livin' this life- hoping to find my wife, cutting through shit like a knife, minus the strife. Don't it look nice? Just gettin' started on this coaster ride of mine. Don't call me again 'cause I'm doing just fine. I got dreams too, that don't include you, so get a clue, pretty girl. Once my world, now you're gone. Time for me to do the same and move on.

I'm the one in the sky, like a dandelion floatin' high. Don't worry babe, I'll catch ya on the flip side. Once again or never again. Your bullshit ain't got no place to land. And on this hand I got a peace sign wavin'. Goodbye to you who 4ever be hatin'. So hear me shout, 10/4 over and out, your lies just don't hold any clout since you left me with the gift of doubt.

Hey pretty girl, is that you cryin'? 'Cause I finally figured out what fools be lyin'? Thought you could play me too, huh boo? Guess this jewel has turned you into the fool. So fuck off and cool that ass off in da pool. Peace.

Morning Walk

9/17/09

I took myself on a walk this morning. 

The sights I was seeking to see. 

Such tragedy lies in living someplace not knowing what surrounds thee. 

What joy I found, caressing the ground, allowing my feet to lead the way. 

The journey was long, but rather quite short in measure of inspirations today. 

The silence I found inside (safe and sound) through allowance of body to stray. 

Not far away lands, but backyard pastures that remained undiscovered this day. 

Have learn-ed me this: 

Life is a place between other states and I'm not talking about U.S of A. 

Together is bigger than us, you or me and we can change this world someday.

I'm talking about drive, the kind found inside, inspiring my writing today. 

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I took myself on a walk today and beauty was all I could find

I don't own this city

To leave ain't a pity

But the journey has been on my mind

I'll never forget the things you have taught me through your art, dirt and crime

H to the Wood

I left when I could

But you can send me a postcard sometime

I'll remember you dearly believe it or not, but staying is just not an option

There's more to this life

Than Hollywood strife

But thank you for all of the passion

Dear Anger

9/16/09

Dear Anger,

I am mad at you. 

You steal my friends and block their hearts. 

You make decisions through judgement clouded emotions. 

You use your power to ruin my days and kill where happiness and love was. 

Anger, you make me ANGRY! 

I wish I could strangle you before you creep into veins like a disease. 

Anger, I hate you. 

I hate you for the feelings you bring out in me. 

Anger makes us do or say things we done mean. 

Anger, some people use you as a coping mechanism or a reason to treat people badly. 

Well I don't agree with You, anger. 

Your reasons are lower than dirt for me. 

After anger comes fear and you should be afraid, anger. 

Happiness and love will tie you down where you belong next to jealousy and pride. 

And in the end, You anger, will be the one who has died. 

Sunday Secret

9/7/09 This is for the readers out there. Sunday Secret J-Love _______________________

I have a secret rainbow friend Who comes and goes now and again Dances with me all night, then flashes a secret smile Spinning E/motions, slow to notice that I have a secret smile Sundays are for lovers, not of the usual kind Sundays are for lovers, who can't make up their mind We gather in the dark filling up the corners of the bar, oh there you are! You are coming to dance with me Together we swing knowing it means nothing Yet we share rainbow love and trust openly Sundays are for lovers, but not the usual kind Sundays are for lovers, who can't make up their mind We love each other because no one else does Found: An easy connection through the buzz Lighthearted and carefree because you mean nothing to me But it's Sunday so we'll see Yeah, it's Sunday so M-A-Y-B-E Sundays are for lovers, we're not the usual kind Sundays are for lovers, we can't make up our mind Sundays are for lovers, we're not the usual kind Sundays are for lovers, we won't make up our mind Oh yeah, It's my secret and I'll never make up my mind!

Dreaming for Dreaming

Sunshine daydreams or midnight screams?

Tics of clock as a snore parade leads

Sleep may come, dreams may go

A dreamers waiting game seems so slow

Rest-time needs a gentle push

Lights go off with OG Kush

Night's possession falls short of me

Wishing I could fall into sleep

This Life

Do everything in light of a higher meditative power. Why not breath people in? Is there not more to life? Together as one. NO. One individual for himself. Living this life every night and living this night every life. Who are you? I'll never see you again. That's right. We're a match but not this life.

Dark's night guide

The moon is a fortress of hopes and dreams

Whose beauty surpasses most other things

Through life's complications, Her light remains

As dark's night guide in between the days

Broken Heart Song

You broke my heart and stole it from me

But now I'm better, you will see

I won't let you get the best of me

(the best of me, you will not get)

Broken and beaten, I will not let

Instead of taking my heart you set free

I'm finally choosing my own destiny la la la

And living my life for me

Broken hearts mend, dreams change

But we cope and hold on to what we can

I won't let you get the best of me

(the best of me, you will not get)

Broken and beaten, I will not let

Universes shifting, bringing us home again

But home is never the same as we left it

Oh yeah, nothing is ever the same as we leave it

...Sometimes it's disguised as how we left it

8/26/09 My Punjabi Girl Life is hard. They judge you before they meet you. Don’t they see you are a step up from me in fact? Don’t let them tell you what to do. You know best whose love you choose. My Punjabi girl. Namaste to you.

7/14/09 Clouded Vision It’s all about your point of view. From one vantage point, life is miserable alone. At the other side, self-love needs to be harvested and grown. We spend our days moving from place to place, but do we ever stop to smell the roses, appreciate all that we have? Get me the hell outa here. How many lives have I lived? Too much pain, for little gain. Why must it always change and never be the same. Déjà vu is impossible too, in this busy world that my soul has been tangled in. I can’t get out before my turn, must wait in line to feel the burn. You get what you’ve got. Why can’t you leave me alone and suffocate me at the same time? What does an anniversary of 25 years really mean to me? They made the choice before I was born with hopeful wishes of love’s children bourn. But those dreams have long since come to fruition, letting go of intuition as we all sink into a pool of life’s muddy lessons. Muddied with blood, tears and sweat. My life somehow doesn’t seem complete yet. What does my future hold, any love, career high reaching goals? In 25 years where do I hope to be? Living happily, well traveled and surrounded by love. Let us all have these celebratory gifts from above. Tomorrow is another day closer to My new beginning. But who knows if that place is better than here.

cats and dogs

Early August '09

Look! 

I was a cat in my past life and you are a dog person. 

It’s nothing against you but you just can’t handle my style. 

You never think before you act, isn’t it strange how opposites attract. 

Me: I’m soft, loving and kind. You: Only care about my behind.

Inspired Dreams

8/20/09 – 8/21/09 Inspired Dreams J-Love Inspired by John, I’m writing a song. It’s about life, and love, and loss. I try to imagine the world you dreamed of through your various paintings of peace. You begged and you pleaded and then you were gone, but your dream still lives on in me. I’ve taken a dream upon my shoulders but the answers are not quick to come. Why John, did you love so much and how did you know she was the one? Right now I’m stuck in a circle it seems, sewing my life in a knot. To let it unravel and set myself free. Not ready to dig in this plot. Ever changing lives lead to never-ending dreams. With each new mistake comes another philosophy. The stars up above, and the earth down below, with all the people in between, Comfort my soul and carry me home as my days are numbering. Who knows what the future of tomorrow will bring, but one thing I hope will come true: Together we can accomplish peace John, through the dream that awakened in you.

Love's Surprise

Healing powers prove

Direction pulling

Like petals on a flower.

Souls meet between two eyes

Such emotion in Love's surprise

J-Love Chronicles

This is the st(art).